For years I’ve thought of God’s prompting and orchestration of my life to be like the movie Kate & Leopold. In the movie, Leopold (played by the ruggedly handsome Hugh Jackman), an inventor, stumbles upon a crack in time that sends him to the future. Kate (Meg Ryan) is a modern-day woman who falls in love with Leopold. SPOILER ALERT! Near the end of the movie, Kate must decide if she wants to join Leopold in an earlier century or live in modern times without him. In order for her to join him she must jump off a bridge into a quickly shrinking crack in time.
I’ve been living my life thinking God opens up these windows of time for me to make a decision and if I don’t take them the course of my life will be altered. Or that I will have to wait for the next one for something great to happen. I think that sometimes that may be true. But now I don’t think He operates like that all the time.
Sometimes it’s more like a father in a pool, waiting for a child to jump in. He’s waiting saying, “Whenever you’re ready to jump, I’ll catch you. I won’t drop you.” He’s there, but we have to take the leap. We have to believe He will catch us. We have to make the first move.
My husband and I have taken a leap. To some it's a leap off the deep end; to others it's just a leap in the right direction. I quit my job nearly month ago thanks to a ridiculous clause in my employment agreement that requires 30-days notice. [Are you freaking kidding me?!] Monday was my first day as a full-time SAHM.
Up until about a month ago I felt like being a SAHM was solely a luxury for those whose husbands made enough money to sustain a lifestyle or for those women who could fill the gap with side-work. We have neither of those things. We are walking a belief…that God is good, that the desire to stay home with my son is something He wants to bless, and that He will provide.
It's adventure in learning to hear God's voice as it relates to His provision for our little family. It’s learning to trust the peace that passes all understanding. It’s making a move that to the world makes no earthly sense. It’s living with a strong belief that this decision will embolden others to jump into the pool and trust God, too.